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Sooo- here I am again after quite a while. I have discovered that sometimes I feel a need to just - write down what I'm feeling - or my reactions to what's going on. I have been feeling numb for a long time - last year - despite many great things happening - was horrible also because my closest friend died and in some way things just ground to a halt. I stopped taking care of myself and when the lockdown happened it just made everything worse. Now we're about to go into another lockdown - just when I think I'm starting to emerge from whatever-the-hell-it-was. Typical.
Ever since covid hit I've been astonished, and surprised, and gratified to see how careful other people have been to keep me safe. My brother and sister in law, my daughter, Spouse obviously have all been taking measures to shield me from possible contact with covid-19. Come to think of it, that may have something to do with my 'waking up'.
Another astonishing thing is my sales of painting. I've had a couple of commissions this year and last week I sold nine paintings that weren't even listed on my online site. I think I'm still in a state of shock but it is a good feeling. And now I get to replace them. Also I have to get a bit more professional about it all, with a spreadsheet or two (Spouse built some for me) and a bit more organisation. Perhaps the next month-long lockdown will be time for some experimentation - or maybe I'll paint the bedroom.
We're waiting now for the birth of my youngest daughter's first child. As of today he is officially overdue. The last couple of months have been hard for my family - my son-in-law died, leaving his wife and daughters in terrible grief and still having to socially distance and then try to get on with life. My oldest granddaughter - who is wonderful of course (no not biased) - was starting university and torn apart. The new baby will help us all heal and look to the future, even if our plans to go and see him have been thwarted by covid there will be much oohing and aahing over facetime in our future.
Ever since covid hit I've been astonished, and surprised, and gratified to see how careful other people have been to keep me safe. My brother and sister in law, my daughter, Spouse obviously have all been taking measures to shield me from possible contact with covid-19. Come to think of it, that may have something to do with my 'waking up'.
Another astonishing thing is my sales of painting. I've had a couple of commissions this year and last week I sold nine paintings that weren't even listed on my online site. I think I'm still in a state of shock but it is a good feeling. And now I get to replace them. Also I have to get a bit more professional about it all, with a spreadsheet or two (Spouse built some for me) and a bit more organisation. Perhaps the next month-long lockdown will be time for some experimentation - or maybe I'll paint the bedroom.
We're waiting now for the birth of my youngest daughter's first child. As of today he is officially overdue. The last couple of months have been hard for my family - my son-in-law died, leaving his wife and daughters in terrible grief and still having to socially distance and then try to get on with life. My oldest granddaughter - who is wonderful of course (no not biased) - was starting university and torn apart. The new baby will help us all heal and look to the future, even if our plans to go and see him have been thwarted by covid there will be much oohing and aahing over facetime in our future.